Anger, sadness, denial…and repeat.
oh I’m so angry at you
and everything you stand for
Give up your adventure, your wild fun
your grand gesture
Your billows of inconsistency,
The trajectory of my orbit and the sanity of my rhythm,
love to everyone
your constant quest to please
for fun
you play the main character
you spill yourself all over
make a mess
while I’m left here
wash the dishes
clean up the mess
once again and again
alone
I still miss you
I can’t even get angry at you properly
because i love you
But you left me
Much of my core light has been removed;
semi-hollow
What will satisfy me now?
When the light is half gone?
Why did you leave me?
Was I not enough?
Where did the flame of light that you kindly shared with me go?
Where is your dance, laughter, and insight?
Where will your bright blue light melt?
Oceanization, flames
drunk on love for me
Bright eyes?
where are you?
Why did you leave me?
Was I not enough?
In search of the lost flame
Where did the flame of light that you kindly shared with me go?
Where is your dance, laughter, and insight?
Where will your bright blue light melt?
Oceanization, flames
drunk on love for me
Bright eyes?
where are you?
Why did you leave me?
Was I not enough?
And the sun will cry with bright fiery tears
As if there was a part
stripped from her core
It was as if she herself had been cut in half.
Leaving memories of the two of us
But among them
and all alone
She continued to search for the flame of her beloved.
But there was only darkness
Where once there was a bright blue star.
It’s very lonely here and very cold
Very little love from others
When dancing in the binary system of two giant stars.
After all, who would dare to step in between them when they were dancing?
spinning, breathing fire
Burning across the sky.
But what if someone is there?
Or maybe something
Who flew into their close-knit system from far away?
what if it was something else
A life-ending sequence was triggered in my companion’s lower abdomen –
A slightly bigger star?
But when was that?
Or was it?
Was it?
Did something happen?
someone?
Have you forgotten?
I forgot.
I don’t remember anything
I have nothing.
was he there?
What was that?
what is happening?
Is it all about me?
Or is there nothing?
And what is this burn,
I feel it very deeply
Right inside the core
once burned,
A half-hollowed heart?
who am i?
am i a star?
Or is it a frozen block of ice?
Why did I freeze?
How did it happen?
Who is to blame?
Is it you? Or me?
Is that even important?
you’re gone and I’m here
Much of my light was taken away.
so small, so dense, so frozen
It’s very cold, hard, and dense, and it hurts when you touch it.
What is it?
who am i?
Why do I still feel so strong?
where are you?
Are you the one who froze?
where are you?
are you here?
Are you still a star?
who are you?
Where can I find it?
Please tell me now!
tell me!
Is it you, or is it us, or is it just me?
where are you?
Why do I feel you so strongly inside me?
It’s you, but it doesn’t look like you.
Still you?
Or is it me?
Brother and my beloved, where are you?
what did you do?
Who have you become?
Why is it so tough now when it was light?
Very dense, attractive and evocative
Why do you feel like you’re pulling my guts out,
Is everything twisting me from the inside out?
what happened?
who are you now?
who am i?
what happened?
What have we become?
Why do I feel such a pull toward you?
But when you get closer, you can’t see anything.
Only darkness.
You’re gone.
But even if you feel like something is going on, is there really nothing?
Is there really nothing?
Am I the only one?
Isn’t it us?
What is this?
what is happening?
why am i here?
Why am I here alone when we were here?
All I remember is your bright blue eyes turning white before the supernova.
Oh love
where are you?
Why are you hiding from my sight?
presence in absence
At first there was a deep wave of confusion
Rather than the cold, cutting silence
However, insight
She was looking for his light everywhere.
Searching for his remains inside and outside
Her rays shot out far and wide
But that’s the nature of black holes
To absorb light.
So she had to learn how to see through the darkness.
And follow that feeling even more
than her eyesight
A boring job for a bright blue giant
whose light unites all that it sees
While she was desperately searching for
panic
he was always there
hidden in the shadows
Still, much closer than before
Pulling her light waves tightly,
just deep down
into one’s own core
If the center of gravity was between the two
Now the center of gravity has moved inside him.
deep inside his core
Source: BLOG-Ashira Tantra – www.ashiratantra.com
