Learning to Finally Let Go of Repressed Emotion

Written by Toni Bergins

My family grew up in a variety of environments. I love my Father dearly and adore him with all my heart. He is energetic, busy about life, very intelligent and wants to share his world with us. He also had uncontrollable and involuntary outbursts of anger that were extremely frightening, confusing, and alarming.

I scream randomly when a bill arrives in the mail or something falls over in the living room. We literally didn’t know what would cause a complete and utter eruption, and when it came, we were horrified. My sisters and I ran to separate rooms and hid until it was over.

My reaction to my father’s anger created a systematic pattern within my body that I have been working on for 30 years. I was born into a family where this behavior was already practiced, so this is very ingrained. After years of deep research of my own, I am convinced that his behavior stems from his own childhood, filled with intense pressure and emotional neglect.

That word is interesting, I was scared and hurt Very similar. This indiscriminate and abusive anger damaged my sisters and my nervous systems, leaving us frightened and dominated by emotions of fear, then anger, and then shame.

In my family, I was only noticed for the emotions my parents could handle. I learned to frame myself as positive, happy, and in control. I shut down other emotions. I realized that my sadness and anger wires were crossing each other. When I was sad, I pretended to be angry. I had a hard time crying because crying was not an emotion that attracted attention in my family. It was definitely anger. When we yelled, they yelled back at us. As we cried, we received that infamous shake of disappointment from our father, who didn’t know what to do with us. My mother consoled us and tried to get us back to happiness as soon as possible.

My reaction to my father’s anger created a systematic pattern within my body. I became an observer of my emotions, suppressed them until I couldn’t hold them all back, and became an expressor on the dance floor. Nothing helps me more than processing and releasing my anger both in the theater and on the dance floor.

I realized that my sadness and anger wires were crossing each other. When I was sad, I pretended to be angry. By releasing the energy of anger through movement, you can not only watch your senses rise up, but also make new choices to react rather than react in the moment. By telling my story on the dance floor through movement, I realized that I could express my anger using my entire body: my pulse, my elbows, my fists, my face, my knees.

Since then, I have been able to sit and feel with all my emotions and move freely, releasing my anger on my team and myself. This habit has completely changed me.

By combining musically influenced dramatic expressions and movement forms, you can access all emotions and move them within yourself. You may find areas in your body where physical or mental reactions are stored. As humans, we all acquire certain activators and triggers. This is another way of saying it. strongly conditioned response Feeling unsafe or traumatized. Remember that you can always adjust your experience by going slowly, choosing your music, and using your breath for grounding and self-regulation.

In my 27 years of work, one of the most powerful experiences for people is getting them onto the dance floor to tell their stories. They express their “stories” (whatever is widest in mind, body, and emotion) with their bodies in shape, pulsation, and movement. In this way, they can release their energy charge and “hear” in a sacred sense. After this facial expression, you can self-regulate with slow, deep breathing to refresh yourself, become more expressive, and return to your center in a relaxed state.

The dance floor is waiting for your story. You can say it as many times as you like and in many different ways. ask yourself, Is this the last time we talk about this? You are free to tell your story until it is complete.

As you tell your story to the dance floor, try transitioning into one of these three emotional pieces of music:

“Don’t Give Up” by Zoe Weese

“Recovery” by Rose Betts

“The Arena” by Lindsey Stirling

No matter what happens, it doesn’t matter as long as you have the agency to choose and have your own experience. you deserve it feel.

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